A few days ago, I listened to an old lecture by a Taiwanese doctor Hsu Tien Sheng who uses the concepts in Seth Material to heal cancer patients. In that lecture, he talked about his own health condition back then, with resting pulse rate of 250 to 300 per minute lasting for six hours, during which he experienced various side effects including cold skin and so on.
I used to measure my pulse rate daily, until that free health app I used decided to leave my life. So I am particular about maintaining resting pulse rate within a certain acceptable range. If it is over 80, it is something of concern to me. But if it is lower than 50, it is not always good, and in my case, it can either meant I am low on blood sugar (haven’t eaten for many hours) or too much cold energy circulating throughout my body.
When he tried to heal his high pulse rate, he took a look at his life, and the following was his discovery. He managed time very tightly, not just in a hurry all the time, but budgeting time very carefully for all his activities, including arriving at the boarding gate only ten minutes before the flight took off. Hence a very fast-paced person.
The way he observed his life was to observe every single one of his thoughts and emotions throughout the day. By doing so, he found that he activated the rush feeling at least a hundred times a day.
Here are some examples of the rush feeling. When I was going to the airport to catch a flight from Brussels to Aqaba, after getting off from the wrong train at the wrong train station, I arrived at the airport 15 minutes before flight time. Every time I looked at my watch, I would generate a thought that said, ‘Oh crap crap crap! Hurry hurry hurry! Run run run!’ When the train was not moving, I would generate the thought ‘Oh my god! Hurry hurry hurry! Move! What are you waiting for?’ When I was waiting for the right train to arrive, I looked around the train station platform, panicking, as there was barely anyone, and wondered, ‘Oh my god! Do trains actually service this station? What if the train doesn’t come?’
Every single one of these thoughts was activated by the rush feeling. In my case, there was a deep sense of panic, insecurity, and doom that accompanied my rush feeling.
I don’t know how someone can keep track of all his thoughts and emotions throughout the day, but then since he practices the teachings of Seth, he must be very good at connecting to his inner self and observing his inner world.
So he taught by using his personal experience to show his students and patients how to observe themselves. Specifically, he was trying to say that the life of a person could be gleaned from the life of that person in one day. If you were to observe every single one of your thoughts and emotions for one day, and come up with a summary at the end of the day, then that summary is your entire life in a nutshell. Because your entire life is made up of and shaped by every one of your thoughts and emotions. If you keep projecting rush feelings throughout the day, your body will eventually manufacture symptoms of rush; it may not exactly be like his, depending on what other emotions and beliefs you have, but you will definitely accumulate enough intensity to manifest something in physicality.
My own practice is different from his. I cannot track every single one of my thoughts and emotions. I am only able to observe, audit, and question the ones that claim my conscious attention. Usually those are the ones that keep on pinging me, albeit subtly, but when I have the presence of mind, I would register their pinging, and then my attention will zoom in on them.
The exploration of my inner activities is not linear—not about tallying the rate of a particular thought generation, or categorizing thoughts into several major buckets, or summarizing the net balance of all the thoughts. Mine is more about perceiving the energetic properties, eg., the texture, density, direction, speed, intensity, strength, etc., of a thought or emotion, and then from there either go deeper to read the meaning and value of that thought or emotion at the consciousness level, or an emotional memory will arise to link this current thought or emotion to an earlier life experience.
So when Dr Hsu mentioned his method, I immediately realized that it was not my innate ability. I don’t know what your approach is to inner observation. I imagine there are hundreds of different approaches out there.
I use the same approach for all the psychological activities occurring during my waking hours as well as during my dreaming hours. The contents of my dreams are not linear. After I wake up from my dreams, I go back into some of them, and perceive their energetic properties to trace their origin or to register their meaning. Sometimes I try to shift my dreams in my waking hours, as a way of healing and transforming my wounds. Sometimes I toggle back and forth between dream plane and waking plane as I continually shift to the version of the dream that I want. The dream continually evolves, with each version being the product of my latest intentions, affirmations, wishes, and beliefs. So it is like watching a prototype taking form, first in my psychological space, and when I am happy with it, push it out to an incubator and wait for the incubator to push it through the threshold into my physical reality. I am using an incubator as a safety measure, to lock into the exact specifications of my prototype, such that other thoughts or emotions popping up relating to that prototype afterward would not automatically be included in manufacturing that prototype (though they can still show up in physicality, just less likely to be bundled together in my prototype), and if I pare down layers of my energy fields, the required ingredients won’t be lost.
The manifestation process can be exciting and frustrating, but that is the learning opportunity and planet Earth is a School of Life.
