I happened to apply needles on myself one day, and I have been doing that since. I would consider self-acupuncture as an avenue for personal growth and healing, as the process provides ample opportunities for self-discovery.
This avenue accesses a much deeper dimension of one’s personhood. The depth of my needle makes my eyelids drop, and I sink into a deeper layer while my energy flow enters that layer. This helps me ground.
My technique of applying the needles is very different than any of the practitioners’. I tune in to the energies and consciousnesses that are being stimulated as the needle enters the skin, and there are a lot of psychological and neurological activities being activated! I use breathing and energetic healing to clear as much of those activities as possible before the needle goes any deeper. This is different from the professionals who use half a second to apply one needle.
Basically, the entire session is to read. Hence inner perception is a requirement for my style of administration. In the process of perceiving, many things that are unconducive to health are illuminated and released, such as emotions, holding and freezing patterns, traumatic memories that may not have been mine but passed down to me, etc.
When I am being treated by a professional, I cannot optimize my inner perception, because when the needles go into my skin so quickly, my freezing pattern is immediately activated and the energy flow becomes restrictive and constrictive, so my entire body isn’t at its most relaxed state or most receptive state. It’s like the difference between slapping my own face and having someone slap my face for me. The body reacts to the two scenarios very differently, and the difference is largely at the unconscious level.
Another important difference is that, my style is a shift, whereas the practitioners’ style is a reset. Like shifting from first gear to second gear, a shift positions the body into a higher plateau that allows it to perform at a higher level. A reset is like shutting down and rebooting a computer–nothing has changed; but exactly because of that, it is a fairly safe treatment. It redirects the energy flow to one that is beneficial to the body. But once the session is over, the body can and may revert to its previously unhealthy energy flow. It does open up blockages, but once the session is over, the blockage may re-establish itself, because blockages are formed at the consciousness level, not the energy level. Addressing blockages at the energy level is really going nowhere.
Most importantly, the re-routing effort does not ask the body, “Why are you doing this? What happened to you? How can I help you? What do you need?” Rather, it takes on an authoritative air, saying, „Here you go. I have bulldozed the pile of junk in your meridians. Now you can flow smoothly.“ Yes, thank you for clearing and opening the blockages. But why did you never bother to ask me why I had the blockages in the first place? Or do you even care to know? You don’t right? You are only interested in what’s right and what’s wrong. And all you see in me is errors. Why don’t you ask who made those errors in the first place?
What if the body needs someone to listen to it? What if the body has something to say? What if in its entire life the body only knows how to be defensive and protective of itself by closing itself tightly like a clamshell? How does Traditional Chinese Medicine treat that? It doesn’t. A lot of healing modalities do not.
A sick body has so much to say you wouldn’t even believe it! But most of the time it doesn’t get the chance to say anything, because nobody asks, nobody cares to ask, everyone just wants to silence it, and yet you wonder why it gets sick.
My approach is to go into the problematic locations in the body, and say, “I’m here. I am here to take care of you. I am here to listen to you, without judgement. You are safe. You are not alone.” And let the distrust and helplessness melt away, so that the body can shift into a more receptive state.
My understanding of the different healing modalities is that, if the body is not recovering, that means the patient has not addressed the purpose of the illness.
This is not to say that Traditional Chinese Medicine or other medical systems are not helpful. They do help the body to recover, if and only if you have confronted the point of the illness first and foremost. The universe is slightly skewed toward the positive. The body, as a natural product of the universe, is also tipped toward the positive. Hence, once the lesson of the illness is learned and you graduated from it, then there is no more need for that illness to exist, and the body naturally moves toward health. Graduating is a stage where you learn a new pattern. That’s growth.
So the key question is, how do you know the point of the illness? That question may lead you on to a path of self-discovery.
If that is not your soul path, then you would most likely be inclined to take on a bandaid solution to make the inconvenience of the illness go away, without making the root cause of the illness go away.
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After experimenting self-acupuncture on myself for ten days or so, Beth said, “Your face looks much better!” The result was a lot more obvious with my technique than with hers, which didn’t really produce noticeable effects even after many attempts. But this is not to discount the value of her expertise. My approach makes my energy not flowing smoothly. So intermittently, it’s better to go to her to let her smooth out my energy traffic, like a well-oiled machine
My approach is guided both by intuition and perception. For example, some needles can be left on while I do things around the house, others require me to lay down or sit still. Some acupoints make me tune in deeper to myself, so I schedule those in the evening, so that I can just fall asleep (tuning into a deeper layer of consciousness) after, while some acupoints do not need deep penetration, so I can do them earlier during the day. The flexibility and convenience of self-acupuncture is another benefit, as timing is also quite important in augmenting the effect of the treatment.
The knowledge I gained from experimenting and exploring my body through the needles is closer to the level of intuition, as in, it doesn’t enter the intellect, but it raises my awareness through my perception of inner activities. This is another route of accessing and acquainting my body, a holistic route that establishes the connection between mind and body.